Bumped into Stephanie at the market tonight. Conversational exchange was an absolute nightmare, jumbled words, mumbling, awkward body language, basically every possible error that could happen happened. Oh God, it was embarrassing for both me and her. Why can't a satellite just drop out of the sky and end my misery? I clearly don't belong on this planet. This leads me to another thought, do I have to psychologically prepare myself for socializing with others? I still don't understand how my brain works and what makes it tick.
Another thing I want to note is the my "ability" to read body language. When you have this ability, you notice little things that few pick up on. For example, how a person leans toward someone shows that they are comfortable with them or how crossed ankles indicate mentally holding something back. One thing I notice all the time is how cashiers everywhere wipe their hands after handing something to someone. It irks the hell out of me how nearly every cashier I bump into will immediately wipe their hand after giving me back my student ID card. In the study of body language, including chimpanzee behavior, wiping your hand after contact with someone indicates that you think the other person is dirty or beneath you. Not all the cashiers do this, nor is it always towards me only, but it still annoys me to a great deal. Every time they do it, I just want to yell, "Yeah, fuck you too, asshole!" When Stephanie did it, I thought, "Wow... thanks, nice to know you feel this way."
Note to self: Prepare to socialize any place at any time with anyone. Ignore the hand wipe reading.
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