Progress?

I've been reviewing mental records of the last few days, and I'm impressed.  Well, as impressed as one can be of their own achievements.  I'm socializing more now.  My conversations with Julia are good, as good as one can be when talking to their "crush".  There wasn't any awkwardness or anything.  My conversations with my one friend here is actually becoming better.  More like pals than colleagues, and I'm no longer freaking him out.  It's good progress I guess, though I'm still broken up about the situation with Julia.  It's not like I'm crying or breaking down or anything like that.  It's more about disappointment with myself, I just couldn't build up the courage to tell her despite nearly half a year of self reprogramming.  If I was dating her, my personality alternation would have made leaps and bounds.  I could've eliminated months maybe even years of self reprogramming.  Right now, I would put my personality similar to the point as it was back in middle school.  It doesn't matter now, I must keep going.

Update:  Bumped into Victor, conversational exchange was subpar.  I stuttered and jumbled words.  Was it because I was unprepared for social contact?  So much for progress.