Messiahs and Martyrs

Another thought popped up today while I was in class.  It's nothing new since I have been wondering for several years now.  The question is do I have a subconscious messiah and martyr complex.  The more and more I think about it, I think I actually do.  I always put the needs of others ahead of myself.  I always take time out to comfort and help others even when I'm strapped for time.  That is the martyr complex, the need to make self sacrifices for the sake of others.  The messiah complex, on the other hand, is more destructive.  Every girl that has ever been attracted to me, I have pushed away, only to regret later on and try to get them back.  Try to get them back, trying to save them from sadness, trying to become the savior.  There it is, the messiah complex.  I don't understand how I managed to develop these complexes.  Does it stem from subconscious narcissism or it is part of my subconscious need to be liked and accepted by others?  Whatever it is, whatever the cause, I need to stop it, it's ruining my life.  The martyr complex I can embrace and accept, but I need to get rid of the messiah complex.

Update:  I was almost late to accounting class today, and I wished another shuttle.  One was waiting right for me when I got to the street...

On another note, I sold 50 shares of Molycorp at $53.01 in the morning, making a nice $195 gain after brokerage fees.  I just came back from class only to find out it rose to $55.29 per share... FUCK!!!  Psychic/matrix abilities my ass.

Note to self:  You are just a man, not a messiah, not a martyr, not a machine.  You are human.

Note to self:  You are not psychic or are you?  Hmmm...