It's already eight something at night, it's safe to say that Clarissa has written me off. My intuition told me that she was on a "manhunt", that is looking for a boyfriend etc. She saw me as a possible candidate, her behavior and actions told me so, but I told her that I would be here another year after this one. She was going to try to graduate as soon as possible so I'm guessing she saw it as an incompatibility. It's understandable that she written me off, I would have become a liability if she didn't. Anyways, the fact that I was willing to text her instead of waiting shows that I am making progress in fighting off this social anxiety. Tonight, I was willing to answer the TA instead of waiting for others to answer, even though I was wrong, I felt no fear, regret or hesitation. Decent progress.
Update: I think I may have been the one to screw it up. What if my blank out state when walking made me miss Clarissa? Ah, damn it, another one loss.
Note to self: Always be aware of surrounding, and always greet others first.
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