Julia AGAIN

I think I saw Julia at the market tonight.  This is a Thursday night, kind of odd I didn't see her when I was doing recon last week.  For some reason, I'm so nervous just at the mere sight of her, hell, just the mere thought of being near her.  It doesn't make sense, yeah she is very attractive, but my mind already put a zero relations probability on her already.  This shouldn't be happening.  I'll try to talk to her in person sometime.  Hopefully.

Man, I seriously pissed off a lot of people at the Village Market.  One girl, I think, is still pissed off that she over charged me and I told her manager about it. Another guy, tall black guy, is freaked out by me I think.

I have been thinking about Clarissa for several minutes.  Analyses of interactions between me and her indicates that she might have thought I wasn't paying attention/listening to her because I was trying to limit eye contact when she was sitting next to me.

Note to self: I seriously need to workout, I can't hide under the facade of being buff forever.
Note to self 2: Don't not be afraid to look a woman in the eye when sitting next to them, don't be afraid to get physically close to a woman, make moderate eye contact with women, monitor facial expressions.

Update: It's Friday morning and I saw Julia again at the Market.  She seems pretty much wants to avoid me.  When I was about to line up, she would go behind the other register.  Nonetheless, I need to apologize in person.

The situation with Bryce is deteriorating.  I keep forgetting to sit up straight and tilt my head upwards to greet.  He seems freaked out by me.  My reformation program isn't going as well as I am hoping.

Note to self 3: Remember to tilt head to greet.