Wednesday, October 13, 2010

A message in a bottle

I saw this posting today on intjforum.com:

http://intjforum.com/showthread.php?t=42408

I guess other INTJs are trying to fit in too.  I'm guessing they either quit or failed based on that post.  Nevertheless, I remain unwaivering in my goal of changing myself.  This is about survival, not about being comfortable in being who I am.  When I was younger, I was bullied a lot and I pushed myself to be stronger, faster, smarter, and tougher in order to survive.  It was painful and uncomfortable, but it was needed to be done, and now I need to survive again.  The chances of me getting married based on my current personality is slim to none, so I must modify it to get married, to survive.  I am determined and I am relentless, this goal will be accomplished or I'll die trying.

On another note, I talked with Victor, my building's RA, today.  Conversation between me and him was normal for the most part, but I forgot to smile.  I sensed that he was kind of unnerved by my behavior.  Speaking of unnerved, I noticed that my TA, Sabina, was shaken was she saw me.  I have to talk to her about that.

Note to self:  Communication is key to good relations and good relationships.  If possible, try to join larger groups so I'll stay out of the spotlight.

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