Developing a Sense of Humor

I want to develop a sense of humor.  Well, not actually develop a sense of humor because I already have one.  It's just that I'm only very humorous and outgoing when I'm either online or around the people I know, but not around total strangers.  I believe that's due to the fact that I'm afraid of it falling flat or offending the people who are listening.  That also reminds to advance my sense of humor beyond poop, pee, and sex jokes.  This is going to be hard.

Note to self:  Develop a better sense of humor.

The Market Stephanie, Interrogative Conversations

I made a note to myself a few posts ago about interacting more with women and interacting with Stephanie at the market is helping me quite a bit.  Even though it helps, I'm not really sure if I should continue making contact.  My interactions with her has been one awkward event after the other.  I might have even accidentally pissed her off about a week ago and I think she gave me the stink eye today after I said that I haven't seen her for a while.  Facepalm.  Regardless, I have to do this, I have to interact with women more.  I hate to use people but I have to talk to Stephanie more often, but given past experience, I'm probably going to end up napalming relations with her.

Another point I like to make is that when I talk to some people, it seems like I'm interrogating them.  I constantly ask them questions but I never really tell them anything about myself.  If I was in their position I would get freaked out too.  Guess I should modify that.

On another note, there are a lot of people at the village lounge now.  Sigh, good things don't last forever I guess.

Note to self:  Don't avoid Stephanie.  Don't be so interrogative in conversations.

The Village Lounge

I've been visiting the village lounge lately (it's the place where the old village market used to be).  It's an awesome place.  For some reason, people don't go there at all so it's pretty quiet plus there is a pool table that I can play around with when I'm bored.  I'm actually getting pretty good at too.  I wish they would open it up during the weekends though, apparently the words "open daily" on the door doesn't actually mean daily.

Jeepers Creepers

I met the new TA for my Ochem discussion section today.  Audrey or Aubrey, not really sure.  Anyway, she's quite attractive and no matter how hard I tried, I couldn't help but give off my INTJ vibe/stare.  It made her extremely nervous.  As I interacted more and more with her, I managed to suppress my vibe and our conversations were decent.  It's bad enough that I'm shy around women, especially very attractive ones, but to give off my vibe while talking to one?  Jeez, I come off looking like a creeper.

On another note, I just spoke to Jacob about earthquakes and our interaction was very good.  I was normal.  It seems like my ability to socially interact with males are making leaps and bounds, but my ability to interact with women is still lacking, should work on that.

Note to self:  Interact more with more women if possible.

Subpar

I just got back my second ochem midterm, the results were not good.  I don't know what the heck is going on with me, I'm getting below average on my midterms for every class this quarter.  I'm usually at average to above average in my scores but this quarter has been ripping me apart.  Right now, I'm fighting for B minuses.  Is it some unresolved issue that's been dwelling in my head?  Are the fates punishing me for my arrogance?  Maybe it's because I'm playing too much Starcraft and surfing the web?  Most likely the last one, but I couldn't concentrate at all when I was taking those exams so it could be something else.  Ugh, I'm dropping ochem and taking it during the summer.

On another note, we're all screwed:

http://www.shtfplan.com/headline-news/nowhere-to-go-85-of-college-graduates-will-return-home-jobless_05242011

http://www.economicpolicyjournal.com/2011/01/87-year-old-dean-of-investment.html

Vibram

I ran a mile today in eight minutes on one of those treadmills at the RIMAC.  I bought a pair of Vibram Five Fingers about a month ago because people were saying they're comfortable and helps you run faster/fix your posture.  I guess they were right, I managed to beat my high school mile run time by nearly a minute even though I weigh more now than I did back then.

Dominance in Conversations

Last week I went to the career center to talk to a counselor about my resume.  She kept on talking and talking, never stopping once.  All I could get in were some questions and ahuh, and head nods.  It seems like I don't interact that well with people who talk a lot.  They throw so much out there, so fast that I simply cannot think of something decent to say.  I believe that I interact the best with someone who about half extrovert and half introvert.  That way, they're not spouting out random boring stuff and I can actually interact with them.  I believe that this was the reason Katherine and I got along so well when she and I met.  She wasn't super outgoing nor was she super shy and quiet.  She and I bonded quite nicely cumulating up to her telling me that she was in love with me.  And then I blew it.  Sigh.

Anyway, speaking of Katherine, I stated that I've gone through the memories of me and her together and analyzed the variables that allowed me to get along so well with her before.  I thought I had gone through every variable, but I realized that I did not go through variations of those variables.  Initially I thought that working in the hospital and being surrounded by a whole bunch of women made me relaxed around her, but that wasn't it, that wasn't the environmental variable I was looking for.  The reason she and I became so close is due to the lack of external forces.  When she and I worked together, all the nurses were off doing their own thing, leaving Katherine and I alone.  There also wasn't much work to do so the only thing she and I did was socialize.  I think this is it, I think I found out what is needed for me to get close to someone.  Now, how am I going to make this happen?  Hmm.