Bumped into Darvarsh again at Price Center, waved and parted ways. No negative physiological responses again. Good.
Interaction with girl at front desk of the village was very good. Smiled and laughed when appropriate. Eye contact time was optimal, body language was decent and no nervousness. Good.
Seems like things are progressing nicely. Though I worry that the reason I've been so good at recent social interaction is due to being comfortable in my surroundings at UCSD, I believe I have made substantial progress. Nonetheless, I have to be careful about regressing and need to keep pushing forward.
Update: Social anxiety is dissipating, but intj vibe is still there. I went to the Price Center post office and asked the guy there some questions. The guy could barely keep eye contact with me. Situation with Christine deteriorated fast. She came into class said hi to me and I looked up and smile. She stood there looking at me through the corner of her eye. Did the looking up thing again. Screwed up at the last second. This whole quarter, interactions with Christine was peachy, up until today. Like running a marathon and breaking your leg in the last 50 feet. I hate myself.
Addendum: Mental records indicate that my eyes kept narrowing when talking to Christine. I don't know why I did that. Could explain why she was so quick to answer me when I talked to her. Stupid. So much for being in the green.
Note to self: Wave hand when saying hi, even when sitting down. Say hi only after eye contact is made.
Update: Social anxiety is dissipating, but intj vibe is still there. I went to the Price Center post office and asked the guy there some questions. The guy could barely keep eye contact with me. Situation with Christine deteriorated fast. She came into class said hi to me and I looked up and smile. She stood there looking at me through the corner of her eye. Did the looking up thing again. Screwed up at the last second. This whole quarter, interactions with Christine was peachy, up until today. Like running a marathon and breaking your leg in the last 50 feet. I hate myself.
Addendum: Mental records indicate that my eyes kept narrowing when talking to Christine. I don't know why I did that. Could explain why she was so quick to answer me when I talked to her. Stupid. So much for being in the green.
Note to self: Wave hand when saying hi, even when sitting down. Say hi only after eye contact is made.
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