In my last post, I wrote how I can easily observe and profile others. When I look at them, I see a small mice inside a maze, searching for a path towards the cheese at the end. They don't know where they're going, but I already know what they're going to do. The ironic thing is that I'm also a mice in a maze, and I have no idea which path to take. It's a lot easier be an external observer than the person doing the rat race. I had hoped my time spent with Dr. Poizner would offer some insight on what I am and what path I should take. While he was very helpful, the insight he offered were things I already discovered on my own. It's odd to wake up everyday and look in the mirror, and not understand the person looking back at you.
As ridiculous as this sounds, I actually read through my entire blog again, trying to create a psych profile of myself from an objective point of view. Can't really create a profile of someone if you're prone to bias. Anyway, here it is:
As ridiculous as this sounds, I actually read through my entire blog again, trying to create a psych profile of myself from an objective point of view. Can't really create a profile of someone if you're prone to bias. Anyway, here it is:
- Mild narcissism
- Fearful/paranoid of the world and people
- Inability to form emotional bonds with others beyond the superficial level
- Lonely, with a desire for companionship
- Strong complex emotions, yet unable to express it
- Passive, takes on a secondary role within group oriented tasks
- Indecisive when confronted with major decisions
There are probably more stuff, but without external observation, I can't get an accurate picture.
I also took enneagram test on similarminds.com and got the results below. I took it before and I got the same type 5 but the variant was different than the one I got now. I got a survival one rather than a social one I believe.
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