It's official, I'm done with everything. I took my computer programming final yesterday and I'm officially done with UCSD and I'll be leaving on Saturday. I got my programming quizzes back and apparently I didn't bomb them, I actually aced them. Good I suppose.
I'm no longer upset about the whole thing with Julie. I shot myself in the foot by showing her this blog, but the introspective analysis I gained from it has been helpful. I assumed she got turned off because in my blog I came off as either insane or a douche, but another possibility is that she thought I was too weird. When I was with Katherine, she used to laugh and say I was weird. I am and apparently INTJs are considered the weirdest out of all types. I guess I have to hide who I am in the future.
It's been a decent year. My relations with my roommates is now considered warm. Spencer and Cary has warmed up to me despite some bumps along the way, and Nathan and Jeffery says hi every time I see them. A definite improvement since the beginning of the year.
In regards to the thing with Julie, the whole thing's been shelved and archived, and I'll "mask" myself from now on. I'll try to be "normal". I wish I listened to my inner intuition.
Addendum: I have submitted my application for the MBA program at University of the Pacific. I'll be sending the rest of my stuff after June 20th. Doubt I'll get accepted. Also my right foot is slightly misaligned, it hurts.
Note to self: Be "normal", never reveal what you are unless you're genuinely close with them. Always listen to intuition when it comes to relationships, always.
I don't know, I see what you were trying to do here is changing your personality. Does it worth. Is there anyway we can live like who we are in this society? After 3 years, what do you think when you go back to what you wrote in here?
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