There is something about me that is makes me different than other human beings, and I'm not talking about being an INTJ either. I'm talking about stuff that dives straight into wacko, tin foil crazy land. I think I can see bits of the future. I normally don't believe in this mumbo jumbo, but it has happened too many times for me to ignore.
When I was younger, I was almost hit by a car, but managed to dodge it because a little voice in my head told me to stop. There were many instances where I would dream about certain events and they would take place several weeks or months later. Sadly, several years ago, when I was still with Katherine, I had a voice tell me of my fate. It said if I chose to be with her, I would live an average life, but married, and if I didn't, I will be rich but lonely. I came to UCSD, I made my choice. I help manage my parents' stock account and nearly every prediction about ups and downs have come true. Even my own financial investment is about to pay off. That's the wealth part. I'm slowly gaining the skills to be financially well off, but I have not established a fulfilling and meaningful relationship besides the one with Mazza. Even then, it's pretty much at a distance. It's done, my fate could possibly have been sealed before it began. I made my choice and now I have to live with it.
No fate but what we make. I wish that was true.
Addendum: Thinking back to that time where I almost got hit by a car makes me wonder if I should have been killed that day. I wish I was.
I can relate to some extent.
ReplyDeleteIf wealth brings you personal loss, what might you gain in pursuing your happiness?
Perhaps your destiny is yet to be fulfilled.