Wednesday, May 4, 2011

Step 4: Acceptance

I made a post before about it was I that have pushed everyone away.  I accept that now, my pain, my suffering, my loneliness is caused by myself, no one else.  Ian friended me on facebook after I messaged him.  He responded once and I sent out a couple of replies.  He did not respond and I got upset and unfriended him.   Stupid of me to do that.  I don't understand why I'm so emotional about things now.  I'm not usually like this back in San Francisco.  What's going on with me?  I have come to terms with what is happening to me, I am the one causing my own suffering and I accept that now.  I cannot blame anyone else for my issues and I must now change it.

Addendum:  I don't know if I can continue this anymore.  I'm becoming more and more emotional since I started this.  I don't understand what's going on, is my desire to change myself into an extrovert truly causing all these emotional outbursts?

Note to self:  Accept that you are the one responsible for your loneliness, accept it, there is no one else to blame.  Fix it.  Don't be so emotional about minor things.

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