I done it again.

I done it again, I have pushed away every girl that was attracted to me.  I saw Julie again during the fall quarter, winter quarter, and the spring quarter.  Every time, I either didn't recognize her or walked by without noticing her.  I guess she thought I hated her, and it's not that far from the truth really.  Honestly, I can't say that I will miss her after she talked crap about me behind my back.  Then again, she did a complete reversal later on and every body language she gave off indicated that she was attracted to me.  I had no idea what to think.  I knew that she had a boyfriend since the first day I met her and on last year's Valentines day, I saw her arm in arm with some guy.  Man, the whole thing was a complete mind fuck.  Still, it would have been nice to be with her.  Maybe my information was wrong and I screwed up.  She was an ENFP, considered the INTJ's holy grail, she was aloof, energetic, and spontaneous.  The data I gathered from her will hopefully help me find other ENFPs in the future.  Nothing was certain when it came to her, the only thing that was certain is what I learned about myself.

I created a thread on INTJforum to see how other INTJs respond to constantly holding a grudge.  Seems as though some are like me and others are not.  I guess I'm more on the emotionally immature side than the others.

Note to self:  Never be so vindictive, be more forgiving.  If a person is trying to make up for it, forgive them.