Another roommate moved in today, guy number four. Though part of me wants to go out there and shake his hand and say hi, I feel... hesitant to do so. Not only that, but when I was back home, I was nervous about ordering food from Dominoes. I don't know why but I just was. Man, I seriously regressed a bit. I fear that living in a single room, it has become my own prison.
I miss Julie, I made a mistake. I hate myself so much for holding a grudge against her, for not expressing how much I was attracted to her. I screwed up, again. Every bit of me wishes that she's still at UCSD next year, but I know the chances of that is slim to none.
Update: Made contact with the new guy, Brian. I was slightly shaking, and stuttered a bit. He also tried ending the conversation, but I continued on anyway, stupid. Should practice meeting people more.
Update 2: Brian and Mike spent the night talking to each other. Seems like they're getting along well, odd man out again for me. I just don't get how some people can socialize so well with others without effort.
Note to self: Interact more with roommates
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