Stuck in the Past?

I found my old elementary school friends on Facebook.  Ruby Kwong, through her, I found Andrew Lum, Lisa Chen, Dorothy Liao, Fanny Chen, and several others.  It was both nice and amazing seeing how they have grown and where they have landed in life.  Most impressive is Fanny Chen, going to Harvard and straight into investment banking.  I can't help but wonder if I am the way I am because I'm stuck in the past.  I recall when we were all graduating from Garfield Elementary School and during the celebration party, I did not join them.  Instead, I stayed by myself in the other room, moping and depressed that they were all going to same middle school, but I was going to another one.  I think that was my first sign of social anxiety.  Could it also have been a sign of separation anxiety?  I don't know, but I did message Ruby Kwong.  I hope she replies, maybe it will give my subconscious a sign of closure.

Update:  She replied with a simple yes.  It was good to hear from her.  It's time to move on.

Update 2:  She replied even further.  She is now on my friend's list.  Man, seeing all of them living, working, in relationships, makes me reflect on where my life is, where my life is going.  What went wrong?  What happened?  Why am I like this?