It's two in the morning and I'm staring up at the ceiling with my laptop beside me. There isn't much to do here really. Every time I come back home, I pretty much spend my time playing video games and doing nothing. The only other thing I do is reminisce the past.
My life is full of regrets. So many chances at something great, something decent, tossed away due to fear or hesitation or stupid mistakes. Right now, I can't stop thinking about Julie and the chance I had with her. That day near OVT keeps popping up in my head and I keep wondering if it was her that yelled. I haven't contacted her through facebook because honestly, what am I hoping to accomplish? Getting back with her? There wasn't anything there in the first place because I never gave it a chance. Fuck it, it's over, it's gone. I wonder what would've happened if I wasn't near her that day, the day I over heard her saying, "I don't really like Jason." Would she and I would have been a couple? Would she and I have dated? It doesn't matter now, all I can do is wonder what could have been. Again.
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