I went to the room selection info section today. Nothing much happened but seeing all those people laughing and talking about how to sign up their friends to be in the same dorm as them pretty much reminded me how isolated I am. This is the last quarter for everyone I met last year, and Mazza is going to graduate after the summer. It's pretty much back to base one after he is gone. Sigh.
On another note, I saw Stephanie Fried today. She was my TA for Econ 1 and Econ 100B. When I looked at her, she was smiling a wide smile. Was she smiling at me? I don't know, even if she wasn't, I should have smiled back. I violated my previous note to always assume that someone is greeting me.
Self analysis indicates that I'm getting better at conversing with people and maintaining a conversation. That's good, it shows that I'm making progress. On the other hand, I noticed that if I have a "crush" on someone, I immediately quell it and not show any emotion. That's not good. I might have subconsciously adapted and changed my behavior because I thought the whole staring and "crushing" thing was considered offensive by women. I'll never know if Erin R. of Cafe Ventana was ever attracted to me, but if she was, I might have prematurely ended it because I suppressed any sign of attraction that night.
Update: Talked to Mazza about living together during the summer again. He said, "It shouldn't be that boring this time around, we'll see." Wow, thanks man, after helping you with your homework, you just toss me aside like that. Maybe this whole isolation thing isn't that bad after all.
Note to self: If you have a "crush" on someone, show it through body language, do not suppress it. Never ignore people. NEVER IGNORE WOMEN.
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