Reminiscing on the mistakes of my past, I thought a bit about Julie again. God, I need to get her out of my mind. Anyway, I did a little search for her and her commencement ceremony. It turns she didn't graduate yet, I found the facebook page for a fall 2011 social psychology class, and Julie posted a comment to earn extra credit. Fall 2011, that was last quarter, she's still here at UCSD. Great, just great, this entire time when I thought she moved away, she was still here. I could have gone back to her during the summer and she I could be together right now. Another mistake on my pile of mistakes, fan-fucking-tastic. What's even worst is that she is with someone now.
I sent my "good bye" message at the start of this quarter. Within one week, she changed her profile pic to the kissy face one, and the beginning of this week, she changed it to her standing next to some douche named Steven Yoon. Man, fuck that guy, he has the standard asian douche faux hawk and horn rimmed glasses style. Hell, in his pic with Julie, he isn't even smiling. I'm an INTJ, I'm socially and emotionally retarded and even I know how to smile for a picture. Neither of them has put each other under the relationship status so maybe they're not a couple. Bah, I don't know what the hell I'm feeling right now, it's like apathy combined with anger against myself and a massive dose of jealousy. I gotta push this aside.
Julie has now become the "one". Every period, middle school, high school, community college, and now UCSD, there is always one girl that I'm infatuated with and they with me, but I always screw it up eventually, causing it to crash and burn. I hope there's another one in the future.
Note to self: Get Julie out of your mind, she's not coming back. Never make assumptions and never believe the information you have is correct.
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