So Many Mistakes

It's been one week since the job fair and I met with Dr. Poizner yesterday.  He suggested that I take medicine to deal with my social anxiety.  Ever since the job fair, I've been running scenarios in my head over and over again about how my life will be for the next several years.  Just thinking about it was painful.  I'm not sure if I can even pass the CPA exam, grad school is pretty much out of the picture, and I don't know what I was smoking thinking that I could get accepted into pharmacy school.  Instead of doing pre-pharm, I could have used that time and energy to do a computer science minor.  Due to the lack of a car and constantly taking courses over the summers, I never did an internship so I'm pretty much fucked.  I'm thinking about going back to community college, finish the pharm pre-reqs and try to get an associates in computer science.  God, just thinking about having to go back to community college again is making me cry.  So many mistakes, so many foregone opportunities.  Three years of my life wasted.