I saw Leah again a few days ago. She was sitting on a bench and was talking to her friends. As I approached to get to the door to class, I looked down at the soda bottle I was holding to avoiding making eye contact with her. I don't know why I did that, I just felt I shouldn't talk to her, I just felt that talking to her was a lost cause. I guess she noticed and she didn't say hi yesterday after seeing me. Maybe the whole "I actually want to be alone subconsciously" thing is true after all.
I saw Darvash again yesterday and said hi. Unfortunately I had to cut my conversation with him short because I had to go to class. Apparently he lives right next to me.
I've been talking a lot to Bryan lately, nice guy. It seems like the more and more I talk to him, the more uncomfortable he seems to appear. I hope I don't screw things up with him.
On another note, I've been analyzing my conversations with others and it seems like I contribute nothing at all to a conversation. It's always answering questions or asking questions, never anything else. I don't know why I'm like that.
Note to self: Be more interactive and engaged in a conversation. Give more information about yourself to others. Don't give off information that might scare others.
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