Midterms and progress

Midterms again next week, Monday and Tuesday.  Right next to one another, fantastic.  Plus a quiz on Thursday.  This shit just never stops.

I've been thinking about my progress in reforming myself.  I've been wondering if I had actually accomplished anything.  I'm still nervous around women I'm attracted to, but not around women I'm not attracted to.  Guys are still freaked out by me, take Bryce for example.  I have to ask myself if this a transition phase or is this the end of the line.  My personality and behavior right now is pretty much the same as when I met Katherine.  I can now converse better with people and I can keep a conversation rolling, but what good does it do if I'm still nervous around women?  I already blown my chances with Shannon when I was still adapting, and I really wish I didn't screw up so much with Julia or Stephanie from the Market.  Is more beyond this? Could this be the end of the line?  I need to push forward.

Note to self:  Learn to forgive and forget, don't be so vindictive and don't be so emotional.