The recent events with Julie have made me take a look back on all the potential relationships I could have had in the past especially the one with Katherine. I've been over Katherine for a long time already, but still, every now and then, I still think about her. The reason I lost Katherine wasn't because of me being forced to choose between her and UCSD. It was because I was insecure and I was sort of unappreciative of her affection and advances. I wish I could say it's because I'm an INTJ and I don't know how to deal with emotions felt by myself and by others towards me because those are merely excuses. I should have been more appreciative of any women who have shown interest in me. Rather than running away, I should explained whether I was interested or not. If I was, I should have shown more affection and care towards them. Instead, I didn't and decided to run away. Thinking back of my time with Julie and Katherine made me realize that affection must be spoken and shown by small gestures, kind acts, gifts, and body language. With this lesson learned, I hope I can break the cycle and not repeat what I've done ever again.
Note to self: Show affection and care to women who are attracted to me.
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