I need a girlfriend. It's what I have been thinking throughout all these years since late middle school/early high school, but I've been questioning whether I really need to be in a relationship with someone right now. Yeah, the company would be nice as would the physical benefits of having a girlfriend, but I feel that I'm just not mature enough to be with someone. Right now, I have a hard time trusting women, and every time I get close to someone or someone gets close to me, I clam up and push them away. I also subconsciously look down upon most women my age unless there is something really special about them. Even then when I meet someone amazing, like Katherine, I still push away if I "sense" that something's off. Can I actually maintain a relationship if I got into one?
Dr. Poizner checked in on me several days ago and I told him about my inability to trust women. I guess I'm going back in again. Hopefully, there's a cure or something.
Note to self: Trust women
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