The End Of The World

News popped up today that it was Italy is going to be pretty much screwed by their financial problems.  Apparently once their interest rates pass 7%, it would be impossible for them to pay down their debt.  The Eurozone is possibly screwed, and so might the entire world's economy if it does go down.  A part of me is freaking out thinking about the possible economic implications, but another part of me is absolutely happy that the world is going straight to hell.  If it does happen then the entire world will know how I felt back when I was younger, the whole world will feel what it's like to be kicked in the teeth while they're down.  It's selfish, it's schadenfreude.

Hopefully, my plans will work out.  Since I was screwed over at a young age, I realized back then that the only person I can rely on is myself when it comes to survival, and I knew shit like what the world is facing right now would go down eventually.  I made plans left and right throughout the last several years and I hope they will work out.  My parents have listened to some and implemented them, which worked out well, but they won't implement resource intensive ones.  Once I have graduated and working, hopefully I'll have enough cash to implement my other projects; solar panels, greenhouses, the whole shebang.  Ironic that my crappy childhood is going to help my family and I survive the next decade or two.

Another thought crossed my mind today, it was one about Raquel.  Thinking back, I may have accidentally made her upset when we saw each other at the market.  She wished me a safe trip and I went to grab a soda, when I looked back, she was upset.  I didn't think much of it at the time, but I realize now maybe that's why she wasn't as talkative the last few times I saw her.  Fucking hell, I'm an asshole and a stupid one at that.  Raquel, wherever you are, I'm sorry.