Think Positive

It's Friday night again.  It seems like the rest of my roommates are going out together and having fun.  Good for them.  In the past, I was hurt when I felt like I was the odd man out, but honestly, it doesn't matter to me this year.  I know that anything deeper than a few hi and byes, and a casual conversation every now and then would be an action in futility, so meh.

I met with Dr. Poizner again today and he has helped me a lot.  One of the things he told me was that it seemed like I'm mentally holding myself back with my constant negative thoughts.  He said that I need to balance it out with more positive and realistic ones.  He's right, I need to have more positive thoughts.  I also asked him what was the general format for dating like.  How it starts, how to move from initiation to something long term.  It was nice to hear it from someone who has experience with a normal relationship.  What sucks now is that I have no idea where to go from here on out.  Dr. Poizner asked me what I wanted to accomplish from now on and I honestly couldn't think of anything.  Is this it?  Did I hit a brick wall and this is how it ends?  I hope not because I don't feel that much different than when I first started.

On another note, I finally sent the notes I typed up to Julia.  I don't expect anything to happen, but it will be nice to do something nice for her.  I saw her several nights ago at the village market, it might be the last time I see her...

Note to self: Think positive and realistic thoughts.