I saw Ralph, one of my roommates during my first year here, several nights ago. He actually said hi to me and he remembered my name. What the hell? He never said hello to me and always pretended to not see me when I was living with him and then the year after. Why the change of heart now? People are weird.
Kevin, a guy I met in MGT 135 is gone, most likely dropped. Meh, it was nice talking to him for the time he was here. There goes another chance at socializing.
I noticed that I am experiencing regression again. Today, I saw Professor Houskeeper walking towards me and I did not wave to him until he waved first. What the fuck? One of the most basic things I taught myself when I began this whole self therapy thing was to greet others even if they don't greet me. How the hell did I forget that? Another instance was when I watching the Walking Dead in the laundry room and another guy asked me what he missed. My answer was so blunt that it spooked the hell out of him. Ugh, it's like I hit the high point of my therapy last year and I'm slowly going back down.
There's still a part of me that still thinks about Julie. I'm still wondering why every time I saw her, a voice in my head asks, "hey, is that Julie" and another voice keeps saying, "nah, no it's not." I don't get why I did that. Is my mind trying to protect itself from harm? I need to get her out of my mind.
Note to self: Smile more, think positive thoughts, greet others even when they don't greet you first.
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