Despite my moderate success in changing myself over the last year or so, I still have not dealt with the issue that is affecting me most, getting close to someone. Looking back at the last ten years of my life, I realize that I have never truly closely emotionally bonded with anyone besides Katherine. Even Wendy, who I consider my closest friend throughout middle school and high school, weren't that emotionally close. Despite knowing her for a decade, it was only recently that I found out when was her birthday and it was only done through facebook. Every time someone tries to get close, I always push them away no matter what. I am still trying to get over this knot like feeling in my mind and let someone get close to me. That is if there is someone who actually wants to get close to me.
Note to self: Let your guard down, be vulnerable, get close to others.
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