Relatives

I'm back home in San Francisco for the winter break.  I've been back here for about two weeks already and there is not much to do.  I should have brought back my econ 120B textbook to get ready for next quarter.  I wish I could find the damn stationary bike I bought last year so I could actually exercise, I'm probably going to gain back all the weight I lost.  Anyway, I've been thinking about my relations to my relatives.  Throughout the years, my relatives and I have grown more and more apart.  I started becoming more and more aware of their behavior as I grew up, and as such I grew discontent.

One of aunts was one of the teachers at my old school and she was a total bitch towards me.  Another aunt is social climbing idiot that seems to look down upon my family even though my mom is her sister.  My third aunt was screwing over my mom and taking advantage of her generosity, this is until my dad put a stop to it.  That in turn resulted in a smear campaign against my dad.  Their campaign was so effective, even I thought my dad was the bad guy, but thankfully I eventually realized the truth.  My oldest cousin is an insecure asshole that often take potshots at me whenever he can, and my second oldest cousin is a popped-collar hotshot who ignores me even though I saw him as an older brother when I was younger.  The last time I saw him he tried talking to me, he can go fuck himself.  My third oldest cousin, who also goes to UCSD, seems to be becoming more insecure around me than before.  He's also seem to be avoidant of me.  I'm maintaining good relations for now, but I try not to get in contact with him.

I'm tired of my relatives.  I'm tired of their lies, their fakeness, their attempts at ripping apart my family because they disapprove of my mom marrying my dad.  I'm tired of their condescending sincerity.  I'm tired of them.  It's time to cut the cords loose.  My mother, my father, and my little brother are my one and only family, my relatives are nothing more than strangers.  Nice way to end the holidays, eh? It's time to let go, it's time to create a family of my own.

Note to self:  Let go of relations with relatives, start a family of your own.