It's a new year, a new decade and I'm back at UCSD. I don't want to be back here. Being back here reminds me of how lonely I am here. Speaking of loneliness, I've been thinking back at all the opportunities with women that I missed. I kept pushing them away because they, in one way or another, screwed me over. Julie, for example, said I don't really like Jason, but later on kept trying to talk to me, but I kept ignoring her and kept acting like an ass towards her. I realize now that she and every other people out there are human and humans are flawed. They lie, they cheat, they're hypocritical, but that is who they are. If I keep going around trying to find the perfect woman, I will spend another life time and will never find her. I should people as people and forgive.
Note to self: Be more forgiving of others. LISTEN TO YOUR HEART AND CONSCIENCE REGARDING EVERY MATTER.
New Year's Resolution: Get a girlfriend. Time to settle down. Be more forgiving and gentle towards women. Be friends with them even if you or they aren't interested in something more.
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