Inadvertently Hurting Others

I saw Stephanie Fried a week ago when I was in the econ building.  I was on the bridge and I think she was looking up at me, not sure though.  When I turned my head and looked down, I think she looked back down.  Was she looking at me?  I'm not sure, but it looked like she was upset.  I still remember several months ago, where I looked down at my phone and back at her again, waiting to see if she would greet me.  Dumb move.  I'm guessing she interpreted as me not knowing her.  I might have her feelings with that move.  I need to take better care at how I react around people because they tend to misinterpret my actions.

Coming Off As Arrogant

I've been thinking about that douche from a few weeks ago and how he made jabs at me throughout the conversation.  He's not the first nor will be the last to do so.  Every year I have to deal with one insecure moron after another.  Bobby, my idiotic room mate during my first year here, was one, several others throughout high school and middle school.  It's pretty annoying that these idiots keep popping up over and over again, constantly trying to boost their own ego at my expense.  The only upside is that I'm getting better and better at waging psychological and information wars against these idiots and shattering their egos.  Hell, breaking Bobby took only 7 months, a new personal record.  But aside from these morons, every now and then I get snooty cashiers or clerks that act like an ass to me even though I've just met them.  Either I'm a crappy customer service magnet or there's something about me that is making them act like that.  It could be because I come off as arrogant.

I'm not sure if it is and I don't know what it is I'm doing that's giving off that vibe.  Should I smile more?  Should I be more relaxed?  I don't know what I should do, but it is an issue I should focus on.

Note to self:  Don't be arrogant.

Annoying Others

I got a 6 out of 6 on my econ paper.  Good I guess since I thought I was going to get a 1 or a 2 because the professor said a lot of the class's paper sucked and a vast majority of them were in the 1 or 2 range.  Despite this little victory, it was an embarrassing event.  My stupid, falling apart sandals broke down when I was walking down the stairs to get my paper.  I took about 2 seconds to fix my sandals and had to walk slower than usual to get my paper, wasting other people's time.  I could tell my professor was slightly annoyed.  It's always like this, I do stupid little things that annoy people, pissing them off and making me upset in return.  I really need to be more aware of my actions and how I'm affecting others, after all, I do want to fit in.

On another note, for the past several weeks, I've been feeling woozy non stop everyday.  I think I'm experiencing vertigo, but I don't know why.  I thought it was due to high blood pressure, but a quick visit to the student health clinic pretty much denied that.  I think a proper check up is needed

Note to self:  Be more aware of how my actions affect others and buy new sandals.

More Social?

I think I've been more social lately.  I've been greeting people that I have met throughout the years without hesitation and I'm actually smiling a bit more.  However, I'm still giving off a vibe that freaks people out.  The pizza guy at Cafe V., for example, greeted me several weeks ago, and when I greeted him last week, he had a nervous look on his face and seemed hesitant at responding.  It's pretty much the same everywhere with everyone else.  I still get the jitters when I see someone I know, but it's slowly starting to go away.  I hope this means I'm making progress.